Estherfromjerusalem
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I have been controlling myself so hard for the last few days. difficult child has gone, he has a visa for a year, is allowed to work, and we have just got back from the airport. He is on his way to Australia. Yes, to the other side of the world. He is realizing a dream, and by so doing is letting me realize a dream, which is to be without him. Don't get me wrong, I do love him, but I'm not sure I even know how to live life without a difficult child around all the time. It will take me a while to get used to not having the constant interruptions and tensions. I know this is very self-centered of me, but it is just thrilling. He is 24 and a half, and has been living at home, he has been working very conscientiously. Let's just say, just the fact that I don't have to wake him up in the mornings is freedom. I know, I know, you will say that I didn't have to wake him up, and I should have let him suffer his own consequences. Quite right too. But you know, when you get up in the morning and it is 8 o'clock, and he is asleep, and then it is 8:30, and every day, day in day out, you know he has to get up for work -- well, I couldn't just carry on with my day and not wake him up. So for starters I won't have that hanging over me.
I don't think I have to explain to you, my "family," what it means not to have him around. I have to be very careful who I say that to. Most people around me just don't understand. I think my other children do understand -- they know him too well. But even so -- well, let's just say, I hope it won't take me too long to get used to having some peace and quiet.
OK, nuff said about that now. Just wanted to share that with you all.
Love, Esther
I don't think I have to explain to you, my "family," what it means not to have him around. I have to be very careful who I say that to. Most people around me just don't understand. I think my other children do understand -- they know him too well. But even so -- well, let's just say, I hope it won't take me too long to get used to having some peace and quiet.
OK, nuff said about that now. Just wanted to share that with you all.
Love, Esther