It has been a busy summer so far. I just wanted to see how everyone is doing. I have been dating a wonderful man for one year now. He is so good to me. I still have my lows about my daughter. I havent spoken to her in a year and a half. In one way it makes me sad. But my life is so much calmer without her in it. My heart still aches for my grandson. I dont get to see him as much anymore because we are taking alot of trips and enjoying life. I have had him a few times and my friend has been with me. Even though my grandson likes him I know he just wants to be with me one on one, because that is the way it has been for the last four years. He starts kindergarten this year and I feel for him. She has not spent enough time with him to teach him basic things. I have a 2 year old grandson and he knows his abcs and can count to 20. My 5 year old makes mistakes saying his abcs and does not recognize alot of numbers. It is sad because he has always been a very smart kid. He just hasnt had any guidance. I tend to feel guilty about not seeing him as often,but I also feel like this is my time to enjoy life at 64. I love all of you that got me through the worst of this situation. I would have not made it without you. My only fear right now is that something will happen to my daughter and I would have to live with the guilt of how our relationship was. I really dont know what I would do if she did come to me and wanted to have a relationship again. But I guess I will have to deal with that if it ever happens.