I haven't been around much in the last month. I do read your posts when I can and think of you all. difficult child has been on probabtion and with her work schedule to 2 different jobs, teaching, and a knee that needs surgery, I have been too busy. We have court tomorrow as a probabtion check in. difficult child violated her probation about 2 weeks ago and was placed back on house arrest. Last night she decided to bolt. She packed a suitcase, took her medications, toothbrush, everything she needed. She has never left prepared before. She means to be gone. She is now 18 so no calling the police at this point. PO is of course not available on weekends. She has been communicating with so many people on the phone we don't know. I have at least 20 numbers. I am finding myself in codependant mode and wanting to call all the numbers to track her down. I also found a homemade bong in her room (yep-searched her room). I am really scared because I heard a bit of a conversation with what sounded like an older man, he was talking is some kind of lingo and almost sounded like he was a pimp. A few of the things he said about dropping a girl on a street and she came back 2 hours later with 1500 bucks, yadda, yadda. I really couldn't make out the coversation. She is not suppose to talk to people we have not meant-court ordered. So I am sure we only know a fraction of her violations. She has really never stabalized since placed on probation. She struggles at both jobs, she has had all kinds of fall outs with "friends". I have suspected MJ use all along. She washes out before all the drug tests and I really don't know how she passes. I thought that the stuff stays in your system a long time and if you are heavy, it stays longer? I'm just scared beyond belief because of her scary risk taking behavior and desperation. She was probably headed to secure care (Juvie prison)for a good amount of time even though the PO wasn't recommending it. The judge has had it and she knows it. Honestly she could probably stay gone quite awhile because I doubt they are going looking. I don't know how much money she has. We decided to stay out of the banking and let her handle her court payments. I don't know if she has even done that?? Please keep us in your prayers and thoughts.