It is with a heavy heart that I post today. My son has been sober for 4 months and was in sober living. Looking for a job. Seemingly doing well. Has a nice girl he sees. He called me yesterday and said he was not doing well. That he had pnemonia and was going to the hospital. Then his girlfriend got on the phone and said he was at her house on Father's Day and he fell asleep and was breathing funny and started to turn blue so they called 911. I was told he was diagnosed with pneumonia but left the hospital early yesterday morning. Didn't make sense. He then went back to the ER yesterday early afternoon but checked himself out again. She was upset and worried but he would not listen to her. I then texted him and asked him if he was on drugs. Nothing made sense and we all know when drugs are involved nothing makes sense. He called me immediately and asked me why I would ask that? He has medication and does not need to be in the hospital for pnemonia...hmmm...okay. About an hour or so later I got a call from his sober living owner and the truth came out. He took some of his girlfriend's mothers morphine and fell asleep. Her mother is chronically ill. Luckily they saw what was happening and called 911 or he would not be here today. The man was VERY nice and supportive and said that my son could not come back there because he would not pass a drug test but that he would be willing to help him. My husband and I were devastated by this news. What do we do now?? We knew the truth. Now it all made sense. My son called later and said that he messed up and it was over now; that he was sober for 4 months!!! I told him that HE needed help. He cannot do this alone. No one can. He does not want to go back to rehab and start over. I don't know what one does in a case like this. He was still with his girlfriend last night but I doubt her mother will let him stay there now when she would not before. I asked him WHY he did it. He said he is depressed. I said he needs to get to the bottom of it and he said there is no bottom. He was very emotional but defiant also. He said the pills were "just sitting there". I told him that he obviously needs help if he decided to throw everything away and do this. Luckily her family has dealt with this because her brother is an addict so maybe they will have some mercy on him. His girlfriend is in love with him. I told him to call the owner of his house. He had told me that he could refer my son to a place that is smaller and doesn't preach AA/NA across the board but has more of an individualized treatment plan that sometimes works better for young guys that are not really "sold" that they are an addict. He is also an addict - pills - so my son should be able to identify I would think. My son told me he just couldn't go yesterday but would today but he contradicted himself too so I don't know what he'll do. I don't know where he stayed last night. He only had $35 but he does have a car. I told him to sleep in his car. He has to feel the consequences of his decision. I told him we were not giving him any money. I have not heard from him today. I need advice. If he doesn't go for help do I tell him to stay at a shelter and look for a job? My husband will back me up. We don't know what to do. I know he needs tough love but I think tough love is harder on me than him!