That sounds like it would mean he's being released, but I'm not up on the jail jargon.................geez, not knowing is always so tough. If you are a spiritual person, perhaps you might say a prayer for him.............when I have not known where my difficult child is, I say a prayer for her and ask God to take care of her now, since I can't .......and then, as usual, say the Serenity prayer. That helps me, sort of handing her over to a Higher Power. And, then I realize her fate has really always been out of my hands anyway, she's firmly planted in her own life, doing her own destiny, which truthfully, I don't understand or know anything about ..............but I have to trust that it's all unfolding exactly how it's supposed to in the larger sense of life, in the big picture. I truly am powerless. It reminds me of a moment 12 years ago when I was taking my 4 year old granddaughter to her therapist after her Dad had killed himself. I was distraught and just full of sorrow and fear for her. The therapist said something that has stuck with me all these years. She said, "you never know why things happen. This is very sad, however, we don't know that your granddaughter won't grow up to be a therapist whose specialty will be to work with folks who've lost a parent to suicide, and she will have this experience to be able to help them." That remark gave me a lifeline to hold onto. Remarkably, when my granddaughter was in the 6th grade, we found another therapist who was just amazing and here's the interesting part, the therapist's father had committed suicide! She was a great source of comfort to us, and "got" what we were both going through on a very deep level. And, here's the other interesting thing, my granddaughter is 16 now, and has this level of compassion and empathy that you don't see as well developed in such a young person too often. She is often the kid other kids turn to when their lives hit a wall with their families. She can be present in their pain and offer her compassion to them, so they seek her out. Whenever I see that now with her, I think of what that therapist said all those years ago. She may not become a therapist, but she has some unique ability to offer herself to others in a very caring and understanding way, she knows pain and can deeply connect with other kids when they are in pain. Sometimes our lives go down paths which we can't possibly understand, but they lead us to a place where we are supposed to be, where we are meant to be and we wouldn't have gotten there had we not learned what we needed to learn in some odd and often heartbreaking circumstances.
Your son may really get a big glimpse of real life now........first jail with no access to you.......then finding his way on an unclear path. I know for me, when I was young and had so much to deal with, as an adult, those very hardships gave me tremendous inner strength and the conviction that I could survive anything. I developed resourcefulness out of necessity, to survive. Your son may be learning that about himself now. You don't know. And, he may keep making mistakes along the way, but one day, wake up with a truckload of what appeared to be negative experiences, which now all add up to a rich and inspiring life which can help others with what he learned. You just never know how it will turn out.
Hang on Mom and keep taking deep breaths............ and release him to a Higher Power if that feels right to you..............(((HUGS))))
