Thank you so much, Leafie. I am not perfect. I will never be perfect.You have every reason in the world, to walk away with your head held high, knowing that you tried the best you could despite great injury to your soul, to have a relationship with your sister.
I don't understand what my sister's issue is. She claims to want to be no contact with me, yet she makes contact by reading what I write, which is a form of contact. And every time she writes about me (if she still does) it means I am not no contact to her. I am talking to her in her head. My brother, at least, leaves me alone, although for all I know he reads this too (shrug).
The great injuries (and they were once) have been greatly soothed by my real family. They are always there. My husband is the best husband that I could have asked for. I am very blessed.